Belva Scott Carlson - Obituary, West Jordan, UT - Utah Obituaries | ObitsUtah.com

Belva Scott Carlson - Obituary, West Jordan, UT - Utah Obituaries | ObitsUtah.com

The New Death of an Old Friend

A few years ago I was going through a tough time. My cat, Mystie, was put to sleep. I felt like the one thing in my life that I needed was taken away from me.
Today, after my life has gone through a living hell, I got to experience that grief all over again. Life really does repeat itself.
When it rains, it pours. I won't delve into much as to why, since some of it is too personal. But, I'll discuss a couple of things that have been plaguing me lately. Over a month ago my upper back went into painful spasms. The spasms aren't so much a problem now, but I'm constantly experiencing enough pain to make me want to cry sometimes. I started seeing a chiropractor. Just when I thought I had things figured out, my lower back went out (serious pain ensued) this Monday and I'm still stiff in that area...some spasms have occurred. Thursday I got some news that upset me to the point of causing me to throw up. I don't throw up. It has been years since I've done that.
Anyways. Today an unfortunate event occurred. I was in the bathroom finishing my business, when I bent over and randomly (almost as if it was possessed to do it) my phone landed in the toilet. I've had this happen before...but I was luckier that time. I stood up to turn around and grab it (as unpleasant as that is). I forgot that the toilet I was sitting on was motion activated for your flushing convenience. The hole was more than big enough. My phone's location is unknown. It suffered the burial of most goldfish. I'm ok that the phone is gone. It's just a phone. But, in that phone was a micro sd card that has many years' worth of pictures, videos and audio recordings. Many of which I have not saved. One of those recordings was that of my Mystie purring. I took it shortly before she passed away.
It's as if she has died all over again. Many memories are gone. I can't let myself think about what else was on there...I'm already a mess with everything else going on in my life.
They say once you hit rock bottom the only direction is up. I just wonder where the bottom is. Somehow I don't think I've hit it yet. I'm scared to leave the house. Seriously.