Me

I want to run. 

I want to explore the mountains close to me and the pathways across the sea. 

I want to sing. 

I want to play the symphonies of the greatest and put myself to the test. 

I want to love. 

I want to be a wife and a mother, a more understanding friend and a better daughter. 

I want to improve. 

I want to conquer my fears and not be so scared of the potential I've shown throughout the years. 

I want to believe. 

I want the courage to face my doubts and to truly comprehend what life is really about. 

I want to be more. 

I want to step forward, never back and be grateful for all I have. 

However. 

I am me. 

I'm imperfect in every way, but I'll keep learning, day by day. 

A poem...rough draft

Lately I've been pondering who I am and what I stand for. And by lately, I mean I've been pondering this for a long time. 

I've discovered that I easily change who I am and what I stand for based on who I am around. When I'm alone, I tend to not know who I really am. Maybe that's why I struggle with being a lone so much nowadays. If I'm not around someone I have no sense of self. 

It is commonly said that we must find out who we are before we can find someone else to spend the rest of our lives with. 

If I don't know who I am, how is someone supposed to love me as there isn't a real me to love just yet. 

Often I feel like a chameleon. 

My colors change as my backdrop changes. 

I wanted to do a freestyle writing on my thoughts and feelings about this and I came up with a little poem of sorts. 

I wanted to share it. 

Maybe someday I'll have more. Maybe not. 

What are my colors?

Am I black and white, knowing what's right?

Am I pale and pink, beautiful but weak?

Or am I red? I've got something to be said. 

Am I blue or green, solid and sure?

Or Am I Orange and fiery? 

Maybe I'm purple,

Made of royalty. 

Am I fuchsia, with no fear of who I am?

Or Am I yellow, Daring to compete with the sun?

Am I a rainbow, a little of everything? Or am I a chameleon that changes from day to day? 

A rock is steady and grey, who am I at the end of the day?

What are my colors?