How Can I Keep From Singing?

So, today was our first Choralaire Sunday of the semester. It was amazing! I went to bed after 1am and got up around 5 or 5:30 this morning. Yay for very little sleep! :)
Hmm...maybe I should go back a little further...
Yesterday was a very bad day. I woke up with many plans to get everything done that I needed to. As the day went on, I had no motivation, energy or desire to do anything. I ended up watching tv for most of the morning and mid-afternoon. I finally decided to start with my plans. My first plan was to clean and rearrange my bedroom. So, I moved some stuff around after finally cleaning the room. I didn't like it, so I moved my bed to the other side. As I did this, I realized that I didn't like it that way either. So, I proceeded to move my bed back to where it was a few minutes previous. The beds in campus housing are a little different. There is no box spring. There are 3 wooden boards that support the mattress. Well, as I was pulling my bed back to the other side of the room, somehow one of those heavy boards fell out and onto my big toe. I'm not even going to try to explain how much it hurt. Seriously, I might take my appendicitis pain again over what I felt yesterday. After crying a bit, and trying to figure out what to do, I once again ended up sitting and watching tv for a bit. I could barely walk because my toe hurt so bad. Finally I got my laundry together, dropped it off in the washing machine and headed to walmart for some purple thread. After walking around Walmart for an hour (on a very painful toe I might add) I finally found most of what I was looking for. I walked out of that store feeling so unbelieveably angry. I hate that store. I couldn't find everything I needed, and I was in pain. I finally got home and my roommate helped me 'hem' my choir dress. It looks terrible, but it worked. I had to hand sew a temporary stitch all the way around. That took me a couple of hours. By the time I fell asleep, it was after 1am. Oh...and as I was driving home from walmart, I tried to figure out why I felt so much tension and anger. All of a sudden the thought came to mind-tomorrow is Choralaire Sunday. The light turned on! No wonder my day had been going so terribly. The adversary was trying to keep me from going. I very seriously considered calling in sick after the way I felt. I didn't want to stand all day on my sore toe and my dress wass not very nicely hemmed...and I didn't know the music (still don't actually). Anyways. I read my scriptures and fell asleep.
I woke up this morning somewhere around 5 or 5:30. I got ready and made it on time. It was a wonderful day. From the moment we started running through some of the songs that we would sing later, I felt so happy. I felt so strongly about the words I was singing. It was wonderful!
As I look back on last year, I sang the songs we sang with a hope of finding comfort, answers and a way out of my troubles. I was on the edge of total despair (seriously). Today I sang with conviction. I knew what I was singing was true. I can't express how wonderful it was. :) I guess you should be getting the hint by how many times I say wonderful and amazing and so on ;) The first song we sang today was 'Sweet Hour of Prayer.' "I'll cast on Him my every care and wait for thee, sweet hour of prayer" Another song, 'Surely He Has Bourne Our Girefs. "He was pierced for all our sin, bruised by all our iniquity....Surely He has bourne our griefs and carried our sorrows..." Come Thou Fount of Every Blessing. "Prone to wander Lord I feel it, prone to leave the God I love....Jesus saught me when a stranger, wandering from the fold of God (well...pretty much the entire song...)"
Anyways.
I guess I just want to express that I can tell that my soul has finally grown up a little and maybe there's hope :)
Last year the music litereally saved me from leaving the church. This time I was able to sing it in a manner that I would hope would help someone else. Music is wonderful! I want to be a musician for the rest of my life. :)
Oh beautiful day!
(and it was BEAUTIFUL today!!!!)